Old Letters lyrics

I was so lost in my pain. Fear was melting my brain. I was counting the days
to insanity.
I was afraid to move myself. Afraid to hurt myself. More than I had until
that day.
Everything i believed in. Everything i fought for. Was now underneath my
feet.
And my heartbeat. Was so gone. Couldn't be felt by anyone. So alone it gave
me the creeps.
My drugs got me in bed. Went up to my head. And i really don't want to
depend. So I'll stick to
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Martini until the end
Play pool again
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Never thought to end like this. No one told me it would be like this. I'm
amazed with myself.
And my brain and my pain and my pain and my veins. Are delivering it to my
health.
My self-confidence was broken while my trust was taken. And it left me with
an empty life.
And this knife. Rests on the middle of my bed. I think in all the things she
said. close my eyes and sleep.
All thse drugs in my head. It seems I'm already dead. And I really don't
want to depend. So I'll stick to
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Martini until the end
Play pool again
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Can't smoke anymore. Can't drink anymore. Still I do it, I do it again.
Lost everything I had. Far from mum far from dad. I thank God from my good,
good friends.
But where's this God that I mention? Where is He right now? As I die slowly
as I can?
All my plans. Went down the hole. My life has